I finished with #1 Client yesterday; their zoo is terrific and the more timid of the pups has become even more trusting. I’d give the credit to the fact I spent most of the time on the floor with my knee elevated so I was even more non-threatening than usual. She consistently curled up in a ball next to my side; that was new. A great crew. Spring Break clients start by the middle of next week and this was a great segue to getting in the mode.
First day back to a structured schedule was yesterday and I was all-in and paying the price now. Had to pack it in early this afternoon and as soon as I hit a chair at the house I passed out for a couple hours. It seems it may be a little more than fatigue as one of the recurring headaches is back accompanied by a sore throat. In addition the entire front of the lower knee–from the joint down to the ankle–feels as if it’s been kicked. The entire area is still ultra sensitive to touch even though most of the swelling and bruising have cleared. Aside from the knee joint area that’s the area still most sensitive. I’m spending more and more time each evening out of the brace to stretch, ice and get around the house. It feels great to have a little more freedom and it’ll be nice to be cleared to do the same outside a protected house environment. Two days until the next surgeon’s appointment and I’ll be glad to get that one out of the way. It feels I’m falling behind with progress after several great days.
A couple of days post-op a friend, KF, dropped off bags of peanut M&Ms. Within an hour 1/2 of the first bag was gone. I must have been good-n-buzzed as I actually closed the bag and put both of them out of sight. A deliberate action to ward off the otherwise inevitable.
Someone mentioned eating for emotions, not for hunger a few days after that. Guilty (somewhat). It’s easy to see how people can fall into a cycle or trap of doing the wrong thing/s when going through the rehab and recovery process. Just as it was somewhat exhilarating to kick around the hardware store via motorized method it’s also a quick buzz to sit around the house ingesting anything to feel good for the moment. Be it food, drink or meds it’d be pretty easy to make excuses during the early part of rehab only to struggle breaking the habit down the road a bit. We make it easy on ourselves to do the wrong thing.
Countless studies have been completed showing the relationship of emotions in our decisions; a recent one speaks a little more to the morality side yet it’s still related to emotional decision making. Key is awareness; if we know this can be a possibility it becomes our responsibility to prevent it. Amazingly the two pounds of peanut M&Ms managed to last nearly a week–I think there’s hope for me!
Wag More
Bark Less